I left Facebook....

Yep, you heard it right I signed off of Facebook in the early part of August and haven't gone back since. I can't say that I really have a desire to go back to Facebook. I'm not saying that Facebook is bad; if you're on Facebook, that's great. However, what I realized for myself in the space that I was in was that logging off of Facebook was necessary.

Why did I leave it?

Honestly, it started a long time ago when I was battling depression and anxiety. I remember telling one of my good friends that it seemed as if everyone was doing great, everyone had a perfect life. Right! The reality is everyone shows the great things that are going on in their lives. It was triggering for me. I felt this competition and sadness of what will I put on Facebook, "It was hard for me to get out of bed today" It felt like I was all alone and what I realized is that for my health and well-being that scrolling through Facebook wasn't helping me truly heal.

The Triggers

It's important to know your triggers, know what triggers you back to the state of sadness, depression, comparison, anxiety, or simply just not feeling like yourself state. For me, it's the memories, the reminders of times that I'm not quite ready to see. It also helps me to truly see that the healing process has no time limit. It doesn't just expire. It's a continual process, it gets easier as the years go by but it's still a process.

Honoring where you are

It's also about honoring where you are right now, not where you used to be or where you think you need to be but where you are right now. Knowing it's okay if you need to step away. I promise you that you won't miss a lot and honestly the people who need to reach out to you will.

So will I log back onto Facebook? Maybe, maybe not. I don't know but for right now I'm enjoying the peace, and serenity of just simply not knowing. I'm enjoying the people who are in my circle who don't need to wait for me to post to congratulate, encourage or check on me. I'm enjoying not seeing what everyone is doing in their lives but focusing on what I need to do. So for right now, I'll continue to be logged off of Facebook. I'll keep you in the loop as the process continues.