I was reminded in my Facebook memory that several years ago today, I was preparing to sell the home that I had worked so hard to get. I'd been in my house for almost ten years and, in a quick moment, felt like my entire life had turned upside down. I was going through a divorce, had lost three cars, had to sell my home, move my girls for the 3rd time in as many years, and again change their schools. I had to leave a job that I loved because I couldn't work and take care of my girls as a single parent. I was so upset because my eldest daughter dreamt of being a competitive dancer, but I had to tell her I could no longer afford for her to compete. I felt completely stripped down.
All that to say, I’ve been there: heavily medicated for depression anxiety, lost everything, lost my sense of self-worth, self-confidence, and self-esteem.
What I didn’t realize at that moment was that I needed to be stripped. All the dead weight, the old, the things that no longer served me were no longer needed. You see, here is the thing: to receive the abundance and love that I now have, I had to first own my story and what I was going through and then I had to do some shedding; I had to release, let go, and step into the mindset of trust and faith. This is a mindset of, "I release so that I can receive."
I love this quote from Brene Brown
Owning our story can be hard but not nearly as difficult as spending our lives running from it. Embracing our vulnerabilities is risky but not nearly as dangerous a giving up on love and belonging and joy- the experiences that make us the most vulnerable. Only when we are brave enough to explore the darkness will we discover the infinite power of our light.
I had to get down to the root. I developed tools to help me get rooted. It didn’t just happen overnight. It took practice, a healthy lifestyle, eating, prayer, yoga, meditation, daily devotions, and journaling. I had to get to the root, become rooted and ground so that I could rise!
The other day, I had someone ask me, “Are you a therapist?” My response was, "No, but what I am is a testimony. I speak from experience. I say from what God has given me.
Don't regret anything that has happened to you in the past. Use that as your testimony. Your test is your testimony. You will come out on the other side.
So, in case this is you and you are feeling stuck, as if there is no light at the end of the tunnel, it is there. Do not give up. Remember that to become rooted and grounded truly; you must shed and clear what is blocking you, what's standing in the way of your path to freedom, abundance, purpose, and passion. It's time to do some shedding in your life.
With love,
Felicia R. Hall
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